I have watched many of the T.V. shows about college life and young adults. What catches my attention on those shows is something that makes the entire television program worth watching. These young adults have a life! They have adventures and fun times. At any moment they could call up their friend and go live it up. I did have those times when I first entered college. My first year was a ton of fun. Then, life caught up.

Life is busy

For two weeks I have wanted to blog about how busy I feel, but have not had a chance to sit down and write about it. That, my friends, is the definition of irony.  My life is school, work, babysitting, and church. People laugh at me and think I have extra time on my hands. After all, I am in my early twenties. What do I really do that is so important? It is not like I have a family to take care of or a house to manage. No, I have school, work, babysitting, and church – four things that consume almost all of my time.

Please do not write me off as a complainer. This is just me expressing some of my disappointing frustrations with this young adult life that no one warned me about. There are beach trips I want to go on. When a band I like comes into town I would love to go see them. There are things I want to do that I feel torn away from. I stay very busy and am not capable of making much time for extra “fun stuff”. When I do have the time to go out and enjoy myself, sometimes I would much rather stay home and rest.

How do I find rest?

After looking at my schedule, one of my sins is made quite obvious. A day of rest is nowhere to be found. I constantly go, go, go. I work hard and give all that I have every day of the week. There are not many days that I simply chill. Yes, I understand that a day of rest is needed. God knows how important it is to rest. How could I disagree? Here is where I will be perfectly honest: I do not know what to do here. Some of you may also be in this place. School requires a certain amount of time from us. Jobs do as well. We have to get money to pay for things. That is unavoidable. Of course, you are always expected to make time for church. That is important as well. There are all of these important things that we are supposed to do. The cost may be our mental health, but by golly we will accomplish all of those important things!

I said to a friend of mine recently that I want to go back to the day that I decided to be reliable and responsible and rethink that decision. Am I the only one who feels this way? If I was not so dependable, then maybe I would not have as many responsibilities handed to me. Sure, I would be considered a bum, but I would probably get a lot more sleep. We could talk about boundaries and learning to say no, but that isn’t the problem here. The problem is we are all busy.

I wish I had a better ending to this. I wish I could say that one day we won’t be so busy. Sadly, I can’t promise that. It is very possible that I will always be busy. The reason for that is because I will always be working hard to be the best me I can be. I may not be able to spend a whole day watching Star Wars anymore, but I spend every day developing my character. I am busy. I get stressed out. Sometimes I wonder how I can even walk with the weight I feel. Then I think about God. Somehow just that thought makes me smile and helps me to keep going.